May the Fourth Be With You, an anniversary post. 

Just thought I’d write a little post about the 4th of May. Now most know it as Star Wars Day which is awesome (even though I’ve only seen the original three and Phantom Menace when it came out in theatres). So I’m definitely not up and up on all the new movies. I know, I know, but let’s be honest here, I’m terrible at watching movies. I’ve maybe watched a handful of movies all year (my favourite was The Arrival!). But I’m sure one day I’ll catch up on them, for now though I’ll stick with my love for the four that I’ve actually seen.

13255917_10154914701187796_8626199267656120252_nThe real reason for my post today is that Star Wars Day is also the day I got married (at the ripe ol’ age of 22). Our wedding was really small, there were only five people including us. But it was pretty perfect. We got married in this outdoor chapel on a beautiful sunny day on a maple syrup farm (along Route 66 lol). We actually did one of our photos in spirit of Star Wars Day. Which is actually pretty hilarious because my Wife has never seen a single Star Wars movie in her life.

Now, if you don’t know, I’m a Canadian whose been living in the US off and on for the last couple years. So we actually rushed a little bit to get married. Marriage Equality wasn’t even fully legalized when we decided to get married. Luckily enough, the county beside ours was accepting all marriages a month before it fully went legal in June. We had wanted to wait but I had to go back home in Canada at the end of May. Which, let me tell you, being separated less than two weeks after being married was harder than the first three years there we spent as a long distance relationship.

When I went home we both had no idea when I would be able to return. That was one of the hardest times of my life. So I went home to Canada and worked my ass off the entire summer. By the end of August though I was able to come back and I’ve luckily been here ever since.

And so, in these three years of marriage we were separated for the first three months, we bought our first house and slowly filled it with 7 wonderful animals who are definitely my babies, aha.

I can’t even begin to tell you what she means to me. We originally started dating in 2011 and we’ve been through a crazy amount of stuff. But I can tell you that we are stronger now than we’ve ever been. And I’m grateful every day that we’ve been fortunate enough to build this life together.

Anyways, I know this post is really but if you’re reading this I hope you had a great day and may the fourth be with you!

Social Media and a Random Life Update.

So I know I haven’t really been active on here for awhile and honestly, I haven’t even been reading that much. But I have been a little bit active on Tumblr when it comes to the book community. I’m finding though that if you aren’t a huge tumblr with an already decent following, you are pretty much invisible. And okay, I’m pretty use to being on the edge of any community I try to be involved with but I at least had friends before, you know?

And recently, I’ve actually been considering going back to Twitter (you can read my post here about why I left in the first place). Mostly because I’ve been reading a few books that I feel like people should be talking about and they aren’t. And I know I should be writing some reviews on here but I reach absolutely no audience now without Twitter to boost my posts. Which really sucks but I also understand why it is that way. I just don’t know if going back is a good idea. I miss talking to people and I miss being involved with book chats and indie authors, but I don’t miss the shitty feelings and the pressure. There was so much pressure. I mean, I’m not reading a lot, I’m definitely not reviewing a lot, I don’t make pretty graphics or take aesthetically pleasing pictures. So I don’t even know if it’s worth it anymore. And it’s just so disappointing that Twitter is literally the only place where 3/4 of the book community will interact with you.

Anyways, I really wanted to say that no matter what I still love the book community and wish I was still part of it more.

Personal ramblings? And why I’m stepping back from social media.

So, if you follow me on Twitter (@bookishnight) then you will know that I actually deleted my Twitter account indefinitely. It’s not that I don’t like being in the book community or talking to awesome book people but it’s not a place for me anymore. I’ve always struggled to find a place in any community really. And I thought I would find one easily in the bookish community but I was pretty mistaken. Not that it isn’t a wonderful place because it can be. But I realized that I just didn’t mesh well. I don’t hop on the hype trains very often, I almost always wait for the hype to go down before I pick up a book and even then. I usually end up not liking it (which isn’t necessarily a bad thing). I also don’t hop on every political, controversial or upsetting topic. It’s just not something I’m comfortable doing (mostly thanks to my anxiety). But mostly due to the fact that when I did have something to say no one gave two shits about it but then would spew out ‘well everyone has a voice that is heard’. Because that’s just not true, which is okay with me. I’m used to keeping my voice to myself; I’d rather not make a fool of myself anyways. And then, we get to the last couple weeks and the community is outraged about a certain traumatic life event(s) that many people experience and that was it for me. The tipping point. I know that it’s said that sharing our stories and coming together in support is a great thing. But that doesn’t work for everyone and certainly doesn’t work for me. So mentally, I just couldn’t handle being on Twitter anymore, that was the last straw. If you’ve read earlier posts here then you know I’ve left Twitter before because of similar instances. But this time, I know that there isn’t going back. This isn’t a book community that I want to be apart of. I thought I was joining a community that was something completely different. So now I’m going back to what I love. Reading to just simply read. No expectations, no reading simply because it’s a super hyped book. Just reading to enjoy it, to connect with characters and writing that I understand. Reading to feel safe. To have a safe space.

Anyways, all that being said, I still would love to keep my blog going and keep in contact with people. So please, feel free to add me on Goodreads where I’ll still be pretty active when it comes to books. Or let me know if you want to connect with me in some other way, because that would be awesome too.

x

 

update post ~ a shameless self promotion.

Not much going on in my life right now, slowly reading a couple books, working, house sitting out in the country with limited internet and that’s about it. I know I haven’t been posting a lot of reviews lately, they are just trickling out very very very slowly but oh well. I just can’t seem to put into words how I feel about books most times. But alas, I’m still around. This is what my Goodreads Reading Challenge is sitting at:

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Not bad for only just beginning the second half of the year. Now if only I could get my review numbers up that high. Right now I’m juggling a couple books (which is pretty normal for me) I’m rereading A Court of Thorns and Roses by Sarah J. Maas and I’m also reading an ARC of The Dream Protocol by Adara Quick.

Anyways, I also wanted to throw this out there quickly that I officially started posting some poetry crap on Wattpad. It’s nothing much, right now it’s just collections of oldish stuff I’ve wrote in the last couple years. I’m hoping to spark an interest to start writing here and there again, whether it be poetry or book reviews or whatever. So it’d be totally cool if you checked out my stuff on there and maybe let me know what you thought.

 

 

One Year Blogiversary! And a life update.

Well here I am, back on the blog for the first time in two months and it’s been one year since I started this adventure. (Sorry I’m not doing anything cool like a giveaway 😦 ) And it was going surprisingly well until the new year hit and I just kind of hit a wall with my life. Even though I was online and kind of talking to people I felt really disconnected, like I couldn’t keep up with others and I couldn’t get on their level. Though, I was reading a lot I realized fast that I didn’t have as much to say about books as I thought I did. Or maybe I just couldn’t figure out how to articulate my feelings into words and reviews. So I walked away in a sense, I stopped going on Twitter, I stopped blogging and I just kind of did my own thing again. No pressure to read hyped books, no feeling like crap because I wasn’t blogging at other people’s levels. It was just me and reading and focusing on all the other aspects of my life.

So here’s what I’ve been up to: working quite a bit, building a huge vegetable garden in my front yard and made a huge decision to really focus on me for once so I joined Beachbody. What does that mean exactly? It means I started doing the 21 Day Fix and really focusing on taking care of myself physically and mentally as well. Not only did I gain a coach who is fast becoming my friend but I gained a team of people who are so supportive and inspirational. When I joined Beachbody I also decided to sign up as a coach; now I don’t have a team yet since I’m only in the beginning of my second round of 21 Day Fix but sometime soon I can inspire people and have a team of my own. Here’s my results from my first round!

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(I lost 4lbs and 13 inches in just 3 weeks) And I know I sound like a freaking ad but this is just me sharing my experience to better myself as a person.

Anyways, back to the book world; I honestly haven’t read anything in weeks and I really want to pick up something good to get back into the swing of things. I think I really want to give blogging another chance even if it’s not always book reviews. I don’t want to deal with any of the hype or the pressure to do blogging a certain way. I just kind of want to do my own thing. I miss talking to everyone and want to try and reconnect again. I’ve met a ton of great people over the last year and it sucks not maintaining those friendships. So shout out to all of you reading this and who have stuck around after all this time. It really means a lot to know there are still some people out there interested in things I have to say. Also, shout out to the authors who sent me books that I read (and mostly loved) but never got around to reviewing; I’m sorry! Hopefully, I’ll just sit down one day and catch up on all the books I need to review.

Anyways, feel free to leave a comment below about what’s been going on in your lives or what you’ve been reading. I’d love to hear from you!