May the Fourth Be With You, an anniversary post. 

Just thought I’d write a little post about the 4th of May. Now most know it as Star Wars Day which is awesome (even though I’ve only seen the original three and Phantom Menace when it came out in theatres). So I’m definitely not up and up on all the new movies. I know, I know, but let’s be honest here, I’m terrible at watching movies. I’ve maybe watched a handful of movies all year (my favourite was The Arrival!). But I’m sure one day I’ll catch up on them, for now though I’ll stick with my love for the four that I’ve actually seen.

13255917_10154914701187796_8626199267656120252_nThe real reason for my post today is that Star Wars Day is also the day I got married (at the ripe ol’ age of 22). Our wedding was really small, there were only five people including us. But it was pretty perfect. We got married in this outdoor chapel on a beautiful sunny day on a maple syrup farm (along Route 66 lol). We actually did one of our photos in spirit of Star Wars Day. Which is actually pretty hilarious because my Wife has never seen a single Star Wars movie in her life.

Now, if you don’t know, I’m a Canadian whose been living in the US off and on for the last couple years. So we actually rushed a little bit to get married. Marriage Equality wasn’t even fully legalized when we decided to get married. Luckily enough, the county beside ours was accepting all marriages a month before it fully went legal in June. We had wanted to wait but I had to go back home in Canada at the end of May. Which, let me tell you, being separated less than two weeks after being married was harder than the first three years there we spent as a long distance relationship.

When I went home we both had no idea when I would be able to return. That was one of the hardest times of my life. So I went home to Canada and worked my ass off the entire summer. By the end of August though I was able to come back and I’ve luckily been here ever since.

And so, in these three years of marriage we were separated for the first three months, we bought our first house and slowly filled it with 7 wonderful animals who are definitely my babies, aha.

I can’t even begin to tell you what she means to me. We originally started dating in 2011 and we’ve been through a crazy amount of stuff. But I can tell you that we are stronger now than we’ve ever been. And I’m grateful every day that we’ve been fortunate enough to build this life together.

Anyways, I know this post is really but if you’re reading this I hope you had a great day and may the fourth be with you!

BookishNight is now duskblooms!

Well, we all knew it was coming. I’ve really been wanting to change up my blog again. It actually took me awhile this time around to come up with something that I really liked. Hopefully everyone else likes it as well! Not only did I get a name change for the blog, I did a whole new design and layout as well. Nothing fancy but a good change of pace for me. Which I think definitely helps get me more interested in posting again. Which I actually have posts scheduled and drafted and ready to go. So let’s hope that I can keep up with this again. Though, I will say that I might try and start posting more personal/life posts as well. I’m definitely not much of a sharer online but it might be nice to have a place to just unload my mind every now and again. So if you’re out there reading this and you’re still with me after all my inactivity thanks for still being here! I really do hope that I can get this blog up and going again.

Keep your eyes out for a bunch of reviews that I’ve got scheduled I’m excited to get some opinions on some of the books I’ve been reading. And please, let me know what you think of the blog changes and such. You know I love hearing from everyone!

Social Media and a Random Life Update.

So I know I haven’t really been active on here for awhile and honestly, I haven’t even been reading that much. But I have been a little bit active on Tumblr when it comes to the book community. I’m finding though that if you aren’t a huge tumblr with an already decent following, you are pretty much invisible. And okay, I’m pretty use to being on the edge of any community I try to be involved with but I at least had friends before, you know?

And recently, I’ve actually been considering going back to Twitter (you can read my post here about why I left in the first place). Mostly because I’ve been reading a few books that I feel like people should be talking about and they aren’t. And I know I should be writing some reviews on here but I reach absolutely no audience now without Twitter to boost my posts. Which really sucks but I also understand why it is that way. I just don’t know if going back is a good idea. I miss talking to people and I miss being involved with book chats and indie authors, but I don’t miss the shitty feelings and the pressure. There was so much pressure. I mean, I’m not reading a lot, I’m definitely not reviewing a lot, I don’t make pretty graphics or take aesthetically pleasing pictures. So I don’t even know if it’s worth it anymore. And it’s just so disappointing that Twitter is literally the only place where 3/4 of the book community will interact with you.

Anyways, I really wanted to say that no matter what I still love the book community and wish I was still part of it more.

Personal ramblings? And why I’m stepping back from social media.

So, if you follow me on Twitter (@bookishnight) then you will know that I actually deleted my Twitter account indefinitely. It’s not that I don’t like being in the book community or talking to awesome book people but it’s not a place for me anymore. I’ve always struggled to find a place in any community really. And I thought I would find one easily in the bookish community but I was pretty mistaken. Not that it isn’t a wonderful place because it can be. But I realized that I just didn’t mesh well. I don’t hop on the hype trains very often, I almost always wait for the hype to go down before I pick up a book and even then. I usually end up not liking it (which isn’t necessarily a bad thing). I also don’t hop on every political, controversial or upsetting topic. It’s just not something I’m comfortable doing (mostly thanks to my anxiety). But mostly due to the fact that when I did have something to say no one gave two shits about it but then would spew out ‘well everyone has a voice that is heard’. Because that’s just not true, which is okay with me. I’m used to keeping my voice to myself; I’d rather not make a fool of myself anyways. And then, we get to the last couple weeks and the community is outraged about a certain traumatic life event(s) that many people experience and that was it for me. The tipping point. I know that it’s said that sharing our stories and coming together in support is a great thing. But that doesn’t work for everyone and certainly doesn’t work for me. So mentally, I just couldn’t handle being on Twitter anymore, that was the last straw. If you’ve read earlier posts here then you know I’ve left Twitter before because of similar instances. But this time, I know that there isn’t going back. This isn’t a book community that I want to be apart of. I thought I was joining a community that was something completely different. So now I’m going back to what I love. Reading to just simply read. No expectations, no reading simply because it’s a super hyped book. Just reading to enjoy it, to connect with characters and writing that I understand. Reading to feel safe. To have a safe space.

Anyways, all that being said, I still would love to keep my blog going and keep in contact with people. So please, feel free to add me on Goodreads where I’ll still be pretty active when it comes to books. Or let me know if you want to connect with me in some other way, because that would be awesome too.

x

 

update post ~ a shameless self promotion.

Not much going on in my life right now, slowly reading a couple books, working, house sitting out in the country with limited internet and that’s about it. I know I haven’t been posting a lot of reviews lately, they are just trickling out very very very slowly but oh well. I just can’t seem to put into words how I feel about books most times. But alas, I’m still around. This is what my Goodreads Reading Challenge is sitting at:

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Not bad for only just beginning the second half of the year. Now if only I could get my review numbers up that high. Right now I’m juggling a couple books (which is pretty normal for me) I’m rereading A Court of Thorns and Roses by Sarah J. Maas and I’m also reading an ARC of The Dream Protocol by Adara Quick.

Anyways, I also wanted to throw this out there quickly that I officially started posting some poetry crap on Wattpad. It’s nothing much, right now it’s just collections of oldish stuff I’ve wrote in the last couple years. I’m hoping to spark an interest to start writing here and there again, whether it be poetry or book reviews or whatever. So it’d be totally cool if you checked out my stuff on there and maybe let me know what you thought.